Saturday, January 1, 2022
Witness: Jim Divine
Scripture: 2 Timothy 1:6–7
Weekly Theme: Proclaim
In the fall of 1990, I was at a big life junction. I had been living in Tegucigalpa, Honduras, for a year and a half; we had a new nine-year-old, Maysson, and a newborn, Christina, who had both come into our home in the past six months. Also, I had recently begun teaching Computer Science at the American School while having a job waiting for me back in the United States with IBM.
Despite all these significant life happenings, I struggled with my future. Over my year and a half in Honduras, I had begun to dive deep into living out the life of a disciple. I read my Bible daily, grew in my prayer life, met with a mentor to help me grow, and was active in our local church. The outcome of these discipleship actions was not more peace but a terrible nagging in my heart that I was being called into ministry.
This was not the first time I had felt this call, but in the past, it had always been something that I could just push to the side, and this time it would not go away. One night as I was preparing to go to bed, I knelt at our living room couch to spend a few minutes in prayer. Suddenly, I felt like a voice was speaking into my mind that was clear and sharp, “Jim, when are you going to give me all of yourself?” The voice was so clear and strong in its tone that I raised from my prayer startled! I knelt to pray again, and I heard the voice again, “Jim, either you are going to surrender all of yourself to me, or you are going to walk away from me; what will it be?” Nothing in my thoughts was focused on ministry; I very simply realized that I had been holding out on surrendering my whole life over to Christ.
It only took a few seconds to realize that I needed to give everything to God––there was simply no question in my life that I wanted all of Christ. I knelt for the last time and prayed a simple prayer, “Lord, you have all of me, today, tomorrow, for the rest of my life I am yours. Amen.”
I got up and was surprised that nothing felt any different. A few minutes later, as I lay in bed, it seemed like a light came in through the ceiling enveloping me with a fullness of God. I laid in bed the entire night, worshiping and praising God, while Loida slept restfully a few inches away.
The next day, as I drove to school, I could not stop laughing as I realized that not only had I surrendered myself fully to Christ but that I no longer had any desire for any vocation other than ministry. Within a few weeks, I was enrolled at Wesley Biblical Seminary, and we were beginning the process of preparing to come back to the States. What an experience!
Daily Prayer: Lord, help me always be open to your continued growth in my life and lead me on the path of holiness where I will praise you all of my days.
- Paul called Timothy to fan into flame the spiritual gift given him; what spiritual gifts has God given you, and how are you growing in your gifts?
- How do you position yourself to hear from God?
- What are you doing with what you hear God sharing with you?